Monday, July 03, 2006
i felt so normal. today. normal. ordinary. weird. what a weird feeling. wow. sometimes, feelings, so empty. nothing. i feel nothing. absolutely nothing. i am not an object. am i really not? i guess so. can anyone answer my question? is it bothering you? youre an object arent you? but why is life ever so perplexing. i stand still in the midst of chaos, and yet i dont feel anything. no feelings at all. no emotions, no reactions. i stand still. listening. observing. looking. but then again, i dont feel anything. my mind is blank. the moment is precious. stagnant. how can this be? is there something wrong with me?
im bleeding; but at least im alive (: